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Happy Birthday Andrew :)

journal

I found a little journal i use to keep. I was never good at keeping it updated.

November 27, 2004

We're just so caught up in everyday life, that we forget to stop and really look at it. All the blessings God has given us. a great family, great friends, a roof under our head, food on the table, bed to sleep in..on?. . . so many many things. i know i don't say this enough, so i just wanted to let You know how thankful i am.


June 27, 2005

Its 12ish AM. about to sleep pretty soon. i was thinking today. thinking about all the times i never took a chance because i was too scared. why am i like that? i want to be open. let my guard down from time to time. but its so hard for me.

i think about all the times ive let people down. and it hurts. so bad. my parents. my friends. myself.


June 28, 2006

They had a fight today. . .
I hate it when they fight
Words hurt


sometime after June, 2006

Its hard sometimes, when you know no one in your family supports what you do. dont give a crap about you, or how mu something means to you. in my case, my parents only want one thing from me, good grades. havent i been doing that for ..uhhhh.. all my life now? I cant promise to be that perfect child they hear on the news or read in newspapers. But i can promise to try my best in everything i do, is that not enough? Dad has never really supported me doing the whole Life Teen thing. Its hard when all i really need is his approval. His support. Some kind of sign that says he cares.

Im leaving for CLI up in santa barbara in 6 days. Im scared. Not sure what to expect.


July 27, 2007

So i havent had the chance to journal in a while. Its thursday, our second to last day here in CLI. So far, its beyond what i was anticipating. Kevin and i are the only two from our church. there are about 38 girls, and 17 guys, including all the leaders and directors. People here are absolutely amazing. Every single person with his or her one special personalities and backgrounds. Everyone had their one story, their own personal experiences.

What a crazy couple of days. Kevin and i were worried all week about our transportation home. Melissa told us she lives in Cerritos and would be happy to ask her mom if we can carpool with them. So thats one less thing to worry about tomorrow.

GLs retreat is this upcoming weekend. Theresa's going to come friday night to sleep over and we're gonna head over there saturday morning. Im going to be burrrnnned out.
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and thats where the journal ended. I'll be back CLI :)

I was watching Mr.Rogers today with Lily, i was never really a fan of that show.

"It's You I like" by Fred M. Rogers.

It's you I like.
It's not the things you ear.
It's not the way you do your hair.
But it's you I like.

The way you are right now.
The way down deep inside you.
Not the things that hide you.
Not your toys--they're just beside you.

But it's you I like.
Every part of you-
Your skin, your eyes, your feelings.
Whether old or new.
I hope that you'll remember
Even when you're feeling blue.
That it's you i like, it's you yourself.
It's you. It's you i like.

End.

saturday

It's a bit weird being home on a Saturday with nothing to do. I've either been on the bed or the floor all day watching tv. Does that make me a horrible person? I don't like being home on a Saturday. Does that make me a horrible person? I would actually rather be at the strawberry festival, as much as i hate it, right now. Does that make me a horrible person? I miss being busy with planning the class. I miss freaking out about the things that needs to get done. I miss school. As much as i like sleeping in, i would rather be at school. Does that make me a horrible person?

Went to Pomona with Andrew Friday. Attended his 9:20am philosophy class. I very much enjoyed it. The professor was pretty enjoyable himself. Went to West mall beacause i had a horrible craving for Beijing beef from panda. We had Hawa-E instead, and it turned out to be pretty good. Walked around, got some cookies, and went to the Dreyers ice cream place that had just opened. I was very surprised to see Java Chip there. It was freakin awesome. Before leaving, we stopped by Borders, got three books for Lily. I love books.

Went home, drove mom to the supermarket, i hate asian parking lots. It's a scary place to drive. I had to order a pizza for Huys thing at school. Long night. Sorry Andrew.
Lakers won :)

Going to Costco later with mom and dad. that should be fun. No sarcasm. Mom wants to go to Ross to get some clothes for the kids in Vietnam.

Mom has been asking for my opinion on a lot of things for a few months now, like for the things at home, clothes, food haha. I like it.

Thats it for now. Im going to watch some more tv before we go to Costco. cheers.

what a small world

summer

Physiology: 90 on the final. 95 in the class.

EDEL: 98 on the final. 98 in the class.

Interpersonal Com. : 95 on the final. 97 in the class.

Math : 100 on the final. 98 in the class.

one year down. a few more to go.

Im at cal poly right now waiting for andrew to finish his quiz. For some reason, ive been very tired today, took three naps. one in the morning. one in the honors room. and another in the study lounge or whatever it is called. Can't believe summers already here. this year went by super fast. Thats a good thing i guess. I have a few pictures to upload

Hi Andrew

i lag

I'm tired. I want a hazelnut latte. I think that's enough studying for today. I've been lagging in the uploading pictures department. Last Friday, Bao, Andrew, and I went to Bowers Museum. It's a shame they don't let you take pictures in there.

Bao and I

take 1


take 2

Look! Bowers!

yeahh

hit and run

someones car

My camera is still broken, the lens retracted but it can't focus. darn it, i've been borrowing andrews camera. I'll get more studying done tomorrow. First final on wednesday. I'm going to head to bed now and call andrew. good night moon.

Every color and every hue
Is represented by me and you
Take a slide in the slope
Take a look in the kaleidoscope
Spinnin' round, make it twirl
In this kaleidoscope world

sorry

im sorry guitar
im sorry books
im sorry room
im sorry car

i need a nap

found a dollar in my pocket this morning. Don't you just love that feeling?

stayed back to ask a few questions. Finals are next week. Im gonna kick some butts, hopefully Went to Target to buy gifts for my tn kids. I've decided this year to have the max would be 5 dollars. Worked out pretty well. headed over to Walmart, finished up all the gifts. everything under $45. The categories for this year are: Top test score(1boy1girl), Awesome helper (1boy1girl), Leaders and Co-leaders(one for each-16 total, all $1 presents), and 6 thank you gifts (3boys3girls). I got my cart stolen today at walmart, i dont like cart stealers, went around trying to find it, no luck.

My camera is sick :( i have a canon sd700 IS digital elph. I can't say i have not abused it. The lens refuse to retract. It makes a clickity-click sound. I looked around and it's more expensive than the sd750-sd1000, the newer ones i assume. This sucks. Andrews going to try and fix it. I'm sorry camera.

i have work later. I need to make up a test soon. Thank goodness it's thursday.

so today

Woke up around 6:30 this morning to get ready for school. There was a little bit of traffic on the 57, but it could have been worse. Got to school around 8, called Andrew, went to the library. Had class at 8:30, we were very productive. Class ended a little early, but i stayed behind a little bit to ask him a few questions. Didn't have my 10oclock class today, his mom is sick but said he would be back by Thursday, so i went to starbucks to get an iced green tea with 2 pumps of melon. I usually do not get that, but for some weird reason, i was craving it. Got to andrews house around 10:20. We left to cal poly a little bit later. When we arived, we decided to get some panda. Fullerton, compared to a lot of other campuses, is quite small. Getting from one building to another, at least for my classes, is a pretty short walk. So we walked to get food, and then to some room for his chi epsilon(spell check) meeting. Im not use to long walks at school i guess. It was a fairly short meeting. Left to the student center afterwards to study. tiredness.readings.hazelnutlatte. Andrew got us ice cream from some kind of company called "It's It". I think im going to have to move up north x] it was DELICIOUS. Andrew left for class afterwards, i stayed to continue my study. I finished most of my readings and summaries there but i decided to finish my work elsewhere. Walked over to where all the food was, I'm not sure what this place is called, TSU where im from :), and finished reading.

So here I am, sitting outside in the cold, on andrews laptop, waiting for him to get out of class. IM SUPER HUNGRY.

I'm going to take the rest of the time to complain about how food here at cpp is freaking awesome. What is there at csuf you ask? Lets see, theres busy bee(chinese), Togo(wannabe subways), Green Burrito(mexican?), round table(pizza), juice it up (wanna be jamba juice), Titan grill(basic food), the bakery(starbucks/kispy creme), carls jr (YUCK), and the garden cafe (italian).

CCP? well lets just say i would get very very fat it i were to go there. But maybe the walk from building to building might burn some of that off. I guess we'll never know.

7 more days

yep

All I Needed to Know I Learned in Kindergarten
by Robert Fulghum


ALL I NEED TO KNOW about how to live and what to do and how to be I learned in kindergarten. Wisdom was not at the top of the graduate-school mountain, but there in the sandpile at Sunday School. These are the things I learned:

Share everything.
Play fair.
Don't hit people.
Put things back where you found them.
Clean up your own mess.
Don't take things that aren't yours.
Say you're sorry when you hurt somebody.
Wash your hands before you eat.
Flush.
Warm cookies and cold milk are good for you.
Live a balanced life- learn some and think some and draw and paint and sing and dance and play and work every day some.

Take a nap every afternoon. When you go out into the world, watch out for traffic, hold hands, and stick together. Be aware of wonder. Remember the little seed in the Styrofoam cup: The roots go down the the plant goes up and nobody really knows how or why, but we are all like that. Goldfish and hamsters and white mice and even the little seed in the Styrofoam cup-they all die, so do we. And remember the Dick-and-Jane books and the first word you learned-the biggest word of all- LOOK.

schoolio

we're all taking a break. Class is starting soon, i should get ready.

I had work yesterday, minh and i grabbed some dinner when i got off.Got it to go, drove over to the life house for SCYAM. Hung around until 9:30.Got home, did some reading, talked on aim, went to sleep.

I think i have a good idea for mothers day. but Im not sure if i should combine it with her birthday, which is on the 14th, though. I probably shouldnt. We'll see. I get paid this upcoming monday, so it's going to be ALL GOOOD.

going to bowers museum later with my bro bro and andrew. that should be fun.